It Was Enough

It was unexpected..
It was only a moment..
But it was a relieve..
And it was nice..

It was only a dream..
It was only a fading memory..
But the feeling was real..
And it soothed my soul..

It was less than perfect..
It was less than clear..
But it was close..
And it was enough..

It had to be enough..
Because..
It had to be enough..


I cannot expect a nicer relief..
I cannot dream a more real memory ..
I cannot perfect an unclear reality..

This has to be enough..
This closure..
This has to be enough..

It was relieving enough..
It was soothing enough..
It was close enough..
It was enough..

It was enough that I could see you smile..
It was enough that I could hear you talk..
It was enough that I could sense no regret..
It was enough that I could keep this in my memory..

- 19 June 2012 -

Fairy Dreamland

Close your eyes..
See all the colours brightened..
Hear the wind humming..
Feel the sun warming the air..

Close your eyes and take a deep breath..
Watch the flowers dance..
Listen to the bees singing..
Feel the cool breeze soothing the mind..

Close your eyes and free your mind..
Everything comes to life..
Every sound becomes a lullaby..
Feels like dreaming in a fairy dreamland..

-01 November 2011-

Maybe

Maybe the memory was just a dream.. or a nightmare

Maybe the glimpse of you was just a passing shadow..

Maybe the heart was just pretending.. or forgetting

Maybe the feeling was just a misled imagery of a painful hope..

Caught up in stolen time..

Tangled in motionless crushed moments..

Torn in tormented emotions..

Frozen in hollowed acceptance..

Maybe the truth was really a wish.. or a careless promise

Maybe the bond was really a badly tied dead knot..

Maybe the hope of closure is finally fading.. or vanishing

Maybe the reality of pain is finally taking over the spark of a possibility..

Choked in the bitterness of painful tears..

Held back in the shadowy corner of the past..

Numbed in the icy coffin of rejection..

Stiffened in the emptiness of a broken universe..

Maybe the past will become the current.. or the future

Maybe the pain will become a blessing in disguise

Maybe the emptiness will eventually be filled with glimmering victory

Maybe the acceptance will eventually taste sweet, even if the bond is broken beyond mending

Batas Sebuah Keinginan

Perlahan kususuri dataran es
Hingga ujung jemariku dapat menyentuh kuntum melati putih itu
Hanya sesaat..
Hanya saat malam terasa terlalu pekat..
Lapisan es di bawah kakiku terasa begitu rentan
Namun melati itu selalu nampak sendiri
Mekar dengan indah di antara rumpun sedap malam
Hanya sesekali kukunjungi..
Hanya untuk memberi setitik rasa hangat..
Tak urung terasa lelah
Menjaga lapisan es agar tak sampai retak

Di kejauhan kutatap kumpulan karang
Sisi-sisinya telah habis terkikis air laut
Setiap saat..
Walau tak pernah sanggup kugantikan bagian yang telah hilang..
Kayuhan lenganku tak sanggup menerobos gelombang
Dan air laut begitu kuat mencampakkanku ke tepian
Meskipun kumpulan karang memanggilku ke tengah
Selalu kutatap..
Selalu kubisikkan semangat..
Tak urung terasa lelah
Memikirkan upaya agar dapat melewati arus gelombang

Kemudian kulihat matahari
Menebarkan cahayanya setiap hari
Tak berhenti..
Walau kadang tertutup awan tebal dan tersamar hujan..
Mengiringi hari-hari yang penuh perjuangan
Matahari tak pernah lelah terbit
Meskipun ia tahu selalu ada saatnya ia harus tenggelam
Terus ia curahkan sinar..
Pancaran cahaya kehidupan..
Tak pernahkah ia merasa lelah?
Setelah melihat begitu banyak kerusakan yang terjadi?

Ah.. Terlalu jauh..
Aku bukan matahari..
Aku tak punya sumber cahaya..
Aku hanyalah bagian dari semesta

Tak seringan sang bayu yang tak akan meretakkan dataran es
Tak selentur fauna air yang dapat menembus ombak lautan
Hanya punya setitik rasa dalam hati
Ingin berempati dan berbagi

Ah.. Terlalu sederhana..
Aku tak mungkin menemani kuntum melati setiap hari
Langkah kakiku tak seringan itu
Sentuhanku pun tak akan hangat lagi, bila terlalu lama menapaki dinginnya es
Tapi aku yakin, kuntum melati akan terus mekar dengan indah
Akupun tak mungkin mencoba berenang ke arah kumpulan karang
Kayuhan lenganku tak selentur itu
Tenagaku hanya akan terkuras habis, tanpa pernah bisa meraih tujuan
Sementara kumpulan karang akan tetap kokoh dalam terjangan gelombang

Ah.. Tak sempurna..
Hatiku kerap tersaput amarah
Jiwaku kerap terbelenggu lelah
Terkurung dinding kelemahan
Terhalang kabut keraguan
Berselimutkan bayang ketidakmampuan
Hanya berbekal keinginan
Tercetus dari satu ketulusan
Dalam satu angan demi kebersamaan

-12 March 2011-

OUT OF PLACE

Help me.. I'm out of place..
I've come from far away place
I'm different
I don't fit in

Help me.. I'm out of place..
I don't want to stand out in the strange crowd
I'm uncomfortable
I'm lonely inside

Help me.. I'm out of place..
I don't want to feel miserable
I'm willing to adapt
I just don't know how

Help me.. I'm out of place..
I don't want to quietly disappear
I want my home
I just need someone to make me feel loved and accepted..

 This wild flower suddenly appeared in the backyard, alone..

These cactus grow in the flower bed around the back terrace..

 

This dumb bell is hiding inside a pot, underneath a plant..

... and ...

This duster is somehow 'hiding' inside a large leave plant..

It is very interesting to see that so many things are often 'misplaced' in our life. We can feel alone, different, left out, misunderstood or even wronged, just because we don't feel belong..

The most important thing is, that we understand ourselves, we accept others and we deal with every situation we face with confidence.. believing that being different is a blessing..


by: Indri Hutapea
-12 August 2011

Before The Day Ends

-15 October 2010-

A White Flower...

-15 October 2010-

Under The Water

 -08 October 2010-

Sebenarnya.. ini kolam apa sih???

Niatnya sih mau renang di kolam renang.. tapi, kok ternyata bukan cuma manusia yang senang berenang di kolam renang.. Jadi, sebenarnya, kolam ini cocoknya jadi kolam apa ya???

-08 Oktober 2010-

Once Upon A Time...

A Moment to Hide in Silence

-27 September 2010-

Question of Baby Orangutan

10th of November is ORANGE T-SHIRT day for orangutan..

Let's save our orangutans.. ;-)

-27 September 2010-

Lovely Little Fairy

Ariq was teaching me how to do a text on a Kid Pix background.. And this poem came to me.. Ariq likes the poem.. ;-)

-25 September 2010-

Today..

This dawn..
I woke up to my baby whimpering
Asking for a diaper change

This morning..
I grinned to my sons' smiling faces
As they fought sleepiness to face the day

This afternoon..
I will greet my sons
As they come home tired and sleepy

Then..
I will sing or read a story or listen to their stories
As their eyes slowly closing

Then..
I will lay myself near them
As I invite sleep to come to me

This evening..
I will have to answer tens of questions
As my sons remember everything they experienced during the day

Tonight..
I will find peace within myself
As I remember how eager I was to leave my job to live in days like today

-02 September 2010

Linux for Kids..

Kid: Linux was nice, Mum..

Mum: Eh? (Is primary school that advanced nowadays?)

Kid: Can I have Linux again, please?

Mum: I'll ask your dad..

Kid: Why do you need to ask Dad? Does Dad prepare my lunch?

Mum: I need to ask your dad because having Linux at home means a big change.. And, No.. Your dad doesn't prepare your lunch. I do.

Kid: (shaking his head in confusion) Never mind, Mum..

Mum: Here, you can have some snack for now (opening snack cupboard, and something fell out) Ouch! What is it?

Kid: (picking up an orange pack that fell) Why is this a big thing, Mum?

Mum: (staring at the orange pack) Oh, this is.. Oh, I thought.. Oh, never mind.. You can have some..

Good Night..

Good night crickets near the fish pond
Let your singing be my lullaby tonight

Good night soft breeze among the leaves
Let your dancing cool my heart and body as I am dreaming

Good night sky above the stars
Let your shade of blue comfort my sleep through the night

Good night birds on the tree
Let your chirps be my greeting to welcome tomorrow morning

Good night reality of life
Let your story come back to me through a fresh mind after this sleep


-27 August 2010-

A Baby's Dream..

Sleep little baby.. Sleep..
Don't you worry about the future yet..
Just dream about the stars..
And place your future around them..

Sleep little baby.. Sleep..
Don't you worry about the world yet..
Just dream about Mum and Dad..
As their love will protect you inside the little world called family..

Sleep little baby.. Sleep..
Don't you worry about life yet..
Just dream about butterflies..
And imagine you are as light and free and colourful as they are..

27.07.2010

Nature's Teaching

The wind blows..
Waking the world of nature..
It is time to spread the seeds of new life..
Mundane.. simple.. yet important..

The bee buzzes..
Calling its kind..
It is time to nurture the seeds of new life..
Natural.. unnoticed.. yet real..

The rain falls..
Paying a visit to earth ground..
It is time to grow the seeds of new life..
Repetitious.. basic.. yet strong..

The way the world speaks to us and teaches us is..
Mundane.. natural.. repetitious..
Simple.. unnoticed.. basic..
That we often take them for granted..

When we search behind the modesty..
We will find meanings that are..
Important.. real.. and strong..
Lessons that we can never live without..

-10 March 2010-

Sometimes..

Sometimes..
The best way to pursue success is..
By closing one eye and covering one ear..

Closing one eye can help us focus..
While..
Covering one ear can help us select the voices we need to hear..

-11 January 2010-

God's Ways

People say God works in mysterious ways
I say God works in the wisest ways..

When HE took our pillar of wisdom
I thought we would fall apart
But then I learned that HE wanted us to be stronger together and wiser..

People say God works in mysterious ways
I say God works in the most enlightening ways..

When HE took our torch of knowledge
I thought that we would be lost
But then I learned that HE wanted us to start enlightening our minds and share the sparks with others..

People say God works in mysterious ways
I say God works in the most loving ways..

When HE took my comfort of love
I thought I would freeze along with my aching heart and dripping tears
But then I learned that HE wanted me to see that it was my time to build better world of love for others..

People say God works in mysterious ways
I say God works in the most balanced ways..

Amidst my strive to hold my tears
Trying to find a way out of the seemingly unbearable nights
HE showed me my limits
And he offered me HIS consolation..

HE sent me a beautiful gem to wipe my tears away
And to heal the open wounds

HE gave me a chance to recover
And to learn that.. Behind each grieve, there is a gift

Because HE will never try us exceeding our strength
Because.. HE is the best healer..

People say God works in mysterious ways
I say God works in the perfect ways..

With each one HE took, HE left a mark in me
A thread of wisdom to light my heart
A spark of knowledge to enrich my mind
A beautiful love to wrap my soul with..


-18 January 2010-